my new life.

Christmas

2011-12-23T01:18:00.002+08:00

Christmas has been something that i begin to ~~not~~ look forward to.

In the past, I enjoy christmas.

preparation of carolling, preparation of dancing and performance.

yes, I still do enjoy the christmas sales that every store has,

buying stuffs at such a cheap price as compared to original price.

However, christmas is just a reminder to me.

showing how nasty can human become and practical can one get to.

God, this isn't what I want to see.

Why show me the ugliest side of the world, when life is tough enough.

what i want

2011-11-12T22:22:00.003+08:00

All I want is just a plain love, just like a plain jane.
Not something that happen in drama, so exaggerating..
Not someone of a different nationality, crossing over cultural differences, religious difference...
Not someone of a huge age gap of mine,
Not someone that I need to struggling so much within myself.
Not someone that I need worry over financial problem for.

It's just too much for me.
So where is my someone?

Differences

2011-11-02T07:06:00.001+08:00

What we need are just different.

Courage and guts that I need

2011-09-30T00:40:00.003+08:00

There's so much that I want to change,
all i need is courage and guts to fulfill them.
The world out there is so much more different,
I know there may be hidden awfulness but i want to try.
At least, I try.

Pawn

2011-01-23T02:29:00.003+08:00

Remember watching a show on pawning, not things but feelings and relationships between people,
Now I wish can too,
If there is a choice,
I want to pawn away my silly memories and ~~anol~~!

In vain

2011-01-22T00:14:00.001+08:00

"Xuan Xuan Meimei, Come! Come and play with me!", said Child D
So sweet of Her to always take care of her "Xuan xuan meimei".
:DDDD

I'm trying

2011-01-19T21:56:00.001+08:00

I'm trying hard enough,
But it doesn't pay good to do so...
I decided to let it go then.

DOWN i go.

2010-09-12T21:07:00.001+08:00

It's driving me nuts!
Concert performance,
syllabus,
EVERYTHING is just going down down!:(

ARGHHH

2010-06-28T23:54:00.002+08:00

Colouring of phonics: Unchecked.
laminating of the letters: Unchecked.
preparing lesson resource: Checked.
cutting and pasting for display: Unchecked.
homework from BC: Unchecked.
OMGGGGGGGG
CRAZINESS!

Workaholic!

2010-06-22T22:45:00.002+08:00

Yes, Here I am to destress.
I just can't find any other ways but here.
I really really can't take these anymore..
I'm trying my very very best putting in all I could getting as much as I could.
But it never seems enough.
This is so much more tougher,
more stress than I taking O level.
more difficult as compared to the obstacles that I have in my life.
It seems like with even a little more stress, I may just blackout and fall flat on the ground.
just like I did while taking O level.
OmG!
Why is it so much, so difficult!
It's just a beginning, just a start of my career, why pose such a great challenge to me?!
Yes, I may have experience but not as significant as I need.

2010-03-05T01:04:00.001+08:00

Here is dead!
Just back from HOKKAIDO and TOKYO!
I had uber funnnn...
Just doesn't want come back.
it's like the first time i felt that way.
Probably it's because I know i'm going to start working.
YES in May)))))))):
I will learn to enjoy working.

Birthday

2009-12-05T15:47:00.003+08:00

Yes, my birthday is coming~!
)))))):
I guess I will just do my day job.
December month is like the broke month.
))))))))):
Christmas presents, celebrations, his birthday etccccc..
)))))))))))))):
Not forgetting the everlasting assignments!)))):
And Yes friends, Please don't give me present give me hong bao.!
HAHAHAHAHA.

I'm watching a movie called, " I DO!"
NICE!!NICE!!(((:

Branded Day

2009-11-20T13:16:00.003+08:00

It was "branded" day yesterday!
Yes, I visited
LV, Gucci, Chanel, Polo Ralph,Miu Miu, Long Champ, Lovwe, Dior, Tiffany & Co, and the list went on and on.
I had many questions in my mind.
If only I have the money,
If only I can bring all of them back,
If only all these could put a smile on my face,
If only time were as good as it used to be.
I had my "If",
But I know it won't come true!
And I was hitted hard on my head by reality.

How I wish reality could be erased for that very moment.

why, how so

2009-11-02T21:47:00.001+08:00

Yes,I'm driving on wednesday and thursday!
God, Bless me!!!!!!
*I just don't know what's wrong with me!
I know there is still a period of time before it arrived.
but still I'm being paranoid!
Why?!
I'm scared!
i'm feared!
why!Why!
I'm really scared this month..
Can I peacefull pass through this month!?)))))):

):

2009-10-31T04:02:00.002+08:00

I F* hate you becoming a Bar Manager!
I super hate it when we always quarrelled about work!
I begin to hate work!
I'm dread to work.
I feared of facing people over there.
I hate working at the place.
I hate that giving in of too much!
Things wasn't this way initially,
Was it my fault,
your faulth or rather Our fault?
I really admire that you're just the first that I face you for the longest time
and keep mum.
It seemed that we are playing a game," who can keep quiet and not speak first?"
Well, it seemed I lost out most of the time.
Well, sometimes, i ask why am I giving in when I don't admit it's my fault.
But rather, I don't wish such situation continues?
It used to be us doing things together.
But not anymore.
I don't know.
One year is coming up.
will we even last till then?
I hate it totally when you think you are in no fault.
I'm really stressed about family don't add in to it anymore.

Nail arts!

2009-10-19T22:37:00.002+08:00

OMG!
Have I forgotten to mention that I went to taipei?!
Girls, get your presents from me!
Why can't S'pore nail arts as cheap as taipei?!
And I will get my nail art changed every week?!
It's just as cheap as like 6 bucks for beautiful designs?!
))))))))):

2009-10-09T00:17:00.001+08:00

I start pondering about my future..
And I'm vexed over what I want.
God, Show me your way.

(((((((((((:

2009-09-28T01:19:00.002+08:00

Oh, have I forgotten to mention,
I have my ear PIERCED!!!!
Yes,With his companion piercing the same spot.!
And I got myself my favourite teapot.

2009-09-12T11:08:00.001+08:00

I hate to hide under that blanket sobbing away till I sleep.
I hate it when I couldn't even sleep well.
What's so wrong?
I simply hate having my feelings and emotions taking on a rollar coaster ride
all just for Someone!

)))))):

2009-08-27T00:39:00.001+08:00

I'm seriously dread to work!
I just couldn't believe that things will come down to such a state.!
I should just slap them!
ARGHHHHHHHH! SHOOT!!!!

Awesome!

2009-08-12T16:16:00.000+08:00

I have blogged the most through out this entire year,
for these 2 days during my temp job.
Batam Trip during Feb,
Sentosa Stay
and Pulau Ubin trip during March,
Our 4th month,
Waraku Short meet-up with magdeline and YQ,
Cameron Highland,
New year gathering at Mr Lee house,
F4 meet up during april,
Marina Barrage!
Done with all my postings!

Admin temp job

2009-08-11T11:43:00.000+08:00

Doing temp at Bench road for 2 days.
COOLIES~!!
It's my first time doing an admin cum recept. job.
Seriously, I can't look at the com for long man!
))):
But time really flies!
Just finish my church documents since work from 9.
Fast!
There's nothing for me to do at all.
Dispatching letters, open door and answer phone.
WAHHHHHHHH~!
I hope can work more days.!
Ok I will blog my entries since last year.
(((((((:

)))):

2009-08-05T10:20:00.002+08:00

I very much struggling whether should I work this holiday,
This is the last holiday I'm having.
I really want a thorough break!
But after seeing my bank, I really need to work.
I can't help and feel so broke man!
I hate this feelings totally.
So broke, that at times, I really doesn't want to leave house!

Power I need

2009-07-25T23:09:00.002+08:00

SHIT!!!
I didn't even had a week break
before rushing for the weekly tasks by this week for mentor.!
Which meant like more than 10 pages of essay to write!
ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
CRAAP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Total Crap!
And submission back to school will be on next friday!
Yes, attachment may come to an end soon.
However, assignments doesn't stop here.!
We need to start pilling up every single bits of things now.
Photos! yes, I don't have it all man!
There just ain't enough time for us to take! or rather multi-task to do it!
I have yet to write any evaluation for any lessons that I have conducted man!
just in point form!
God, give me power! lots of it!

Have fun!

2009-07-17T00:13:00.002+08:00

Wah.. It's choatic this entire week!
Lesson were very much packed together.
First lesson last week.
The preparation work wasn't well prepared.
Second lesson was yesterday and the third lesson is today.!
Yesterday was mentor assessment and today Field Supervisor Assessment!!
And tomorrow is DAC assignment submission.!!!
MADNESS, I swear!
Having your lesson rejected again and again was demoralising.
However, amendments were done asap.
And yesterday lesson was crap totally!
But mentor's suggestions were very beneficial.(((((:
Children today were very tamed today during lesson.
I love them today!
That allowed me to conduct successfully.(:
Madness is over.!
Now it's over! it's more relaxing now.(:

sweetness ovewhelmed bitterness.

2009-07-01T23:15:00.000+08:00

He's so sweet.(((:
Had a quarrel with him recently.
We were simply too busy for one another.
Barely had quality time together.)))))))):
We had a chat around 11pm, when he was doing closing.
Then he intentionally ask me to call later as he "got things to do".
I called back around 5 mins later.
When he's on the transport, so we continued to talk.
Suddenly, here came the door knocking away.
*frightened*
timidly, ledged the hedge and open the door.
There were no one, I wanted to close the door.
And he appeared.(((((:

Where goes wrong?

2009-06-30T00:08:00.001+08:00

Were you just ain't sensitive enough or rather,
I'm just plain childish?

THings are horrendous

2009-06-23T12:29:00.002+08:00

Oh shoo..
Yes, I always use this in front of my children)))):
I have so many things to be done by next week and
I'm really running after time.))))))):
- 6 detailed lesson plans
- 2 learning corners
- 5 activities in each corner
- 3 pages of newsletter for parents
-CIRPE project.
))))))))))))))))))))):
Lord, give me more strength for the next month!
And it will be over!

No matter - Angel

2009-06-15T18:18:00.004+08:00

No Matter - Angel

"Doesn't matter whom you are with
doesn't matter where you are going
don't you know i'm still waiting here for you
and pray for you
In the sunny days,
Sun will light your day
In the windy days,
Wind will lead your way.
I have to say
you're my treasure moments,
never gonna walk away.
In the rainy days,
Rain will share my tears.
In the stormy days,
Storms will steal my pain
Just go your way and leave things all behind
Spread your wings and fly away
I'm pretending you're mine and wishing you'll be fine.
The moments we share never die
You've made a difference to my life.
and let me realise the feelings I've got deep inside."

I was trying hard to find this song.
So he helped me and found it.!
He sang it on the other side of the phone twice.
And I started tear uncontrollably.)):
I missed him!
So Much!
I haven't got to see him for like five days because of attachment.
We could even barely to talk more.
The entire conversation for the five days was just 30 minutes.
When I'm free, he's still on his bed and at work.
When he's free, I'm soundly asleep.
When He heard I was crying over in the other side,
he was SHOCKED!
Even though, how tired the both of us were,
we tried to talk the night till 4am.
((((:
Though he may not be as sweet to be like in the lyrics,
But it's really sweet that he sang to me on the phone.((((((((((:

2009-06-13T01:14:00.001+08:00

First week of attachment,
Not bad.
Shall not comment so much, if lecturers see, GOOD GAME!
hahahahah.
Rushing for assignments now!
)))))):

Attachment

2009-06-08T23:00:00.002+08:00

Shit!
I'm starting my attachment tomorrow!
Everyday, 9 to 5pm.
Crap.
Dear God,
Bless me in any way that I need.
Take away all the nervousness that I have.
Be with me!
In Jesus' name I pray,
AMEN!
((((:
Please let it be a breeze!

Marina Barrage!

2009-06-05T15:12:00.049+08:00

YES,
I went to Marina Barrage!
WAHHHH~~!!
It was uber fun!
(((((:
We had fun splashing water and
throw one another into the water.
Initially He didn't want to go near to the water!
Because he is in his smart casual attire!
)))))):
So I was like some kid playing alone in the water.
After several times of attempt to play together.
He gave in!
So he start folding up his jeans and took his shoes off.
He was mean!
He keep putting my head to the fountain
and gotten me all wet!
I tried to aviod but still lost.):
I really like the environment.
GREENERY&vast sea view.
WAHHH~!
So refreshing!
We went around walking at City hall and
headed to Indochine @ Art Civilisation Museum.
The food was like super expensive.
It's like eating Tze Char but at $70 plus.
OMG!
But at least we went before(:
And the band isn't as good as wisma outlet!
Photos!(:

More fun more merrier.

2009-06-03T23:48:00.001+08:00

I want go Marina Barrage&sun-tanning!
I want to have most fun till next tues!!
)))))))))))))))))):
There's something very wrong with me!
I regretted somehow.

Tank-top day.

2009-06-01T23:26:00.001+08:00

Had a great evening with magdeline.
We 'd fun at SASA,
smelling at different perfumes till we couldn't differentiate the different.
((((((((((((((((((:
And it was tank tops' day!
HAAHAHAHAH.

Yes, He stayed over for three whole day!(((((((:
just like what I did last week.
Haahahahah.
We cooked spaghetti and ate fries.
He's totally loved.(:

Such a Failure.

2009-05-30T00:17:00.000+08:00

I failed being a sister, friend and girlfriend.
)))))))):

Yes,

2009-05-28T02:53:00.002+08:00

Things didn't seems to be what it used to be anymore,
it doesn't seem to be going out for a date.
Every week has been a routine, chore and duty.
Rather than an enjoyment.
Were we too used to one another?
Or rather we have forgotten how it used to feel anymore?
Time has passed in a blink of eyes.
Should I rejoice?

Attachment is starting too,
Probably it will be better because
we won't had so much time for one another anymore.
And yes, Now he has taken over the role of being a
Bar Supervisor and the Cashier Supervisor.
Fantastic~~!!
Meaning he will has lesser time for me.
Then I will start complaining again and arguement will be more.
I being to hate seeing things down to such a state.
It doesn't seems to be what it used to be anymore.
Those places we used to say that we want to go together etccc,
It's all just because I want to go and not lets go together.
)))))))))))):

Host

2009-05-24T00:15:00.003+08:00

Got my posting,
it's pretty alright!
just that ____________!
Yes, attachment is hitting hard on me in 2 weeks time.
God, bless me!
And still we have lots of assignments.
Is it me, you or rather us?
I just don't understand))):
Being Host on a friday really kills.
I being to hate vb for having such a big area.
for having so many people keep coming.
for so many people at dinner area.
But still it's love that he kept helping me out.
Giving me a little time for a little dinner,
Talking to me and making sure that I'm alright.
Letting me know that he still cares about me like he used to.(((((((((:

2009-05-16T14:20:00.002+08:00

Posting is released on Monday!
))))):
And we will be attaching for more than a month.
God, i pray.
Bless me!

TEACH ME HOW TO WRITE A LIT. REVIEW!
I'm still at it.))))):

))))))((((((:

2009-05-10T19:15:00.003+08:00

-2nd May
He's back with tons of things.
I met him the very day when he's back at vivo.
Yes, I was late.
When he gave me a big hug,
I saw a whole row of plastic bag behind him.
I swore it was madness with sweetness.(:
So after some catch-up with a drink.
We headed to work together with everything.
HEAVY!

-Today
Yes, Damien fixed my printer.!
Alex was Manager on Duty so I had to reach earlier
than me.
So he brought my printer all the way to work.
And Damien fixed it.((((((((((:
There's a project due on thursday and another next tues.
I forgotten all my theories)))))):
Teach me how write a lit. review!

Cheer me up

2009-04-28T22:32:00.001+08:00

I miss him,
He's at China for one.two.three.four.five.six.seven days));
Left another 3 days..
ARGHHH!
My printer had dead on me.
I really don't wish to spend money and buy another one.
))))))))))):

):

2009-04-25T23:48:00.002+08:00

I just hate it,
I just hate the way she hide behind the door and tear away.
Why can't I just graduate right away?
Can I just graduate right now?
and go work?
I just hate things going on this way.))))):

Hair extension is in my trend now!

2009-04-22T17:09:00.002+08:00

ARGH!!!!
Madness, it's just 3 days of school.
I've rushed to school from home for 2 continous days!
Yes, In Cab.
I'm ultra broke yet I just can't turn my body time back to usual.
ARGHHHHHH!!
I just hate it totally.
I't gonna to suck all my money)))):
Mygoal for tomorrow:bus to school punctually!
PLEASEE

Oh, Not forget to mention,
I had my first hair extension in my life!!
It's COOL SHIT!!
THANKS ZARRA for bringing me!!
I realised they have another branch at chinatown point!
I shall do it there next time, so it won't be a hassle to travel all the way there!
(((((((((((((((((((:

SCHOOL?!

2009-04-20T22:36:00.002+08:00

The past few weeks,
in my mind was just,
"yes, School is starting.
yup, very very soon.
yes, there will be an attachment during this semster."
For how long?
No idea.
How will school be like?
Don't know.
Asking around.....

Today...
Going to school as usual.
Yes, A very weird combination of us and another cohert.
but now, I know.
We will have 6 week intensive of lectures and lessons.
and we will start of 7 weeks of attachment!
Which means we have just 2 modules this semster(((((:

GREAT News:
No school on every FRIDAY!

Man U Puzzle!

2009-04-13T23:06:00.001+08:00

I made this for him!
It took me 2 hours to complete it.!
it's certainly fun(((((((:

Fantastic Four

2009-04-13T14:57:00.005+08:00

We'd lots of fun!
When there wasn't any stress and commitments back then.
(((((((((((((((((:

Muffins!

2009-04-13T14:07:00.002+08:00

I have made muffins since morning!
I felt a sense of achievement!
It's my first time doing it.
It tasted quite ok i think!
Made quite a lot going to bring to vb later!
I'll try making cookies on friday!
hahhahahah(:

When I start to have doubts all over again,

2009-04-13T01:24:00.003+08:00

I wonder,
Was it better or rather,
is it better?

It's just in a short period of time,
Things changes like nobody's business.
How and why so?
Ya, and again in a week time,
School is starting)))))))))):

When there's many people around,
Tongues start to wag.
nasty and hurtful could just gush out of one's mouth without second thought.
Since, it's happening.
):

Scatterbrain&

2009-04-08T16:56:00.003+08:00

What a scatterbrain have I been lately,
Just what went wrong with me?
Everything just didn't seems to went right at all
)))))))))))):
Shoes could just broke for no reasons in the middle of the road,
Ez-link card could just went missing for no reason!
Went far east yesterday, Everything i want buy just went out of stock.!
Just why?
I don't know.

But thanks God,
some kind soul returned my Ez-link card
Probably a KinderJoy will cheer me up.

I'm feeling rather moody):

2009-04-06T16:13:00.003+08:00

Just came back from
Cameron&Genting Highlands.
A 4D3N trip which cost me barely 200 bucks!!
It's worthwhile!
Pictures up soon!

Anyways my laptop just got well,
and freshly renewed from the service center for like 2 months!!!!

School is starting in 2 weeks' time)))))))))):
Attachment on this very semster.
timetable was pretty alright but
it could be better if the lecturers will merge all the short days into
Just 2 -3 days.!
(((((:

Entries for 31 Oct
19, 20 Nov
9, 13, 17 Dec 2008,
3,13,15 Mar

Cameron Highland & Genting

2009-04-03T00:21:00.105+08:00

Our first trip!

Flowers are my all-time fave!

My Baboon!

Some vegetable farm we went!

The vegetables were crunchy!

Cactus valley.

My Fav. Flower!

Black Jack Trick!

At Genting!

I love the Orange Sweet Potato.

We went to fly!

Ticklish!

We want to go!

PICNIC @Botanic Garden

2009-03-25T23:38:00.014+08:00

Wake up early in the morning.
Went to NTUC and buy stuffs.
I prepared everything.
And he just help a little))):
We went picnic at Botanic Garden.
Just when we left the house and head to Botanic Garden.
It start drizzling.
))):
So we hide in a little shelter to eat the food we prepared.
YUMMY!
Corn, Salad and Sandwiches!

Egg and Chicken Sandwich.

Corn

Salad.

The first to finish!Corn!

We bought some more biscuits.

Song of the Sea.
It's my first time watching.

Caught me in action!

Cafe Del Mar

Wedding

2009-03-21T09:33:00.000+08:00

Wish them a blissful marriage!
((((((:

Zoo

2009-03-19T23:26:00.001+08:00

I went to the zoo with my distanced relative!
And saw him!
haahahha.

Pulau Ubin

2009-03-16T17:10:00.003+08:00

It was then,
Somehow I regretted letting it start in the first place.
It's a total piece of shit.!

2009-03-15T00:19:00.002+08:00

I missed 3 months ago...
))))))))))):

I started losing my balance,
and draw a ~~fine~~ line.):

vB outing!

2009-03-13T23:51:00.002+08:00

Went out with Geraldine and Angie!
Me and Angie reached first!
And saw this converge mirror,
Make me look real fat and short!
):

Vroom!

2009-03-12T04:52:00.002+08:00

Time Checked: 4:52am!
Went to have dinner at Muthu's Curry!
Yummy!
Curry fish and chicken.
We are still planning and pasting the brand new,
fun job which we just bought when we went out!((:
Exciting(:!

Peel my skinOUCH!

2009-03-12T02:31:00.002+08:00

I'm done with my new SKIN!!
((:
and now I need help out with my bf's wall skin!
HAHAHAHAHAHAH(:

Short meet-up

2009-03-09T16:26:00.000+08:00

A short meet-up is recharging!
((((((((((((((((((:

Exams is OVER!

2009-03-08T02:00:00.003+08:00

OH, Shoohs!
I've forgotten to announce that
MY EXAMS
ARE OVER!
It's been holiday for 2 weeks!!!
And I've done so much things!
Visual Pleasure soon!
I promise!
I just need more time.(((((((((((((((((((:

I need more colours in my page!!!
HELP!!

Happy!

2009-03-06T16:52:00.000+08:00

It's our 4th month.
So I went to decorate a cake on my own((((:

Rasa Sentosa Resort 2D1N

2009-03-04T14:52:00.000+08:00

the 2D1N stay at Sentosa!
I bet it costs a bomb with the travelling all around sentosa!
But we'd lots of fun!

TOwN

2009-03-03T23:05:00.001+08:00

She accompanied me and
We have a walk at town and ate ice-cream a freezy cold weather.
(((((:
Hope you have fun on your birthday(((((((((:

BATAM trip!

2009-02-26T15:25:00.082+08:00

Back from BATAM!

Just for a 2D1N trip with 3GIRLS and 1GUY!!

YES!!

ME,ZARRA, YEE MUN, ALICIA & KAIYUAN!

(((((((:

))))))))))):

2009-02-21T22:57:00.002+08:00

I don't feel like studying!
ARGH!!!!!!
But my instinct tells me if I don't study,
I will repeat this module!

Long waiting break!((:

2009-02-19T22:48:00.002+08:00

ARGHHH!!!
Just another couple of hours,
I'm going to have my first paper!
ARGH!!!!!
I just pray hard that I have telepathy with Ms Su about all the answers she wants!!!!!!

And also in Just a couple of days,
I will have all my time to waste and rot!!!!!!!!
((((:
I want do so many things!!
I want go Genting with my classmates!
Our Sentosa stay!
Shanghai Trip!
Spending time together.
DIY a:
Cake,
Bracelet,
handphone pouch
and so many more!!!!!!!!!
ARGHHHH! I just can't wait((((:

I swear! I'm not going to take up 2 jobs like what I used to do!!!!!
I NEED A BREAK(have a kit-kat(((((((((((((((((((:)
I will just enjoy first because I have my attachment started next semster!
I need more inspiration for my lesson plan and strategies on how to manage behaviours!!
hahahahhaha I need creativity!
((((((((((((((((((((((((((((:
MONDAY COME QUICKLY~!!!

Mr Lee House!

2009-02-08T15:05:00.000+08:00

We definitely enjoyed a great deal!
((((((((:

Reasons & Purposes):

2009-02-08T00:56:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I know all the reasons,
because he needs to show that he's not showing favourtism or biasness,
and all sorts of reasons,
I really know all the reasons and purposes of his actions,
But always my mood and emotions got the better of me.
I just want him to side me and think in my shoe.

Please let me be understanding and not being unreasonable.):

Days):

2009-02-07T12:02:00.002+08:00

It's rather busy,
be it at work, studies, church and home.
I just want laze like a bum at home.
Watching Series shows.
Not to worry about my expenses,
Not to worry about my grades,
Projects and so much more.

It's always the case that
I'm either at work to fulfill the 3 working days per week,
or staying in school till late at night to finish up the projects.
Here comes, exam and I need study like HeLL.

God, Please give me wisdom and determination.
In Jesus's name, I pray.
AMEN!

Pictures will be uploaded after all my exams!

Snow City

2009-02-05T23:59:00.000+08:00

I went Snow City with him,
and threw ice-ball.((:

Nothing worth more than a short break

2009-02-04T22:57:00.000+08:00

I meet Hannah,
And we talked so much((((((((((:
I'd a great day!
I miss those days working together!
It's sad that Siti couldn't join us):

It's a happy day(:

2009-02-03T23:56:00.000+08:00

I'm meeting Hannah tomorrow(((((:

First hamper in my life!

2009-01-23T01:28:00.002+08:00

He just always scare hell out of my life!
I was just on my way to meet him.
Then I recieved a phone call,
At the other cord:
"Hi, I'm the delivery man for the hamper.
I'm delivering to (my address).
Is there anyone home?can you be home soon?
Me:Ohhh, hmmmmmmmm ya i'm home. errrr. as in someone is home but not me?!
who is it from
The person: it's from (his nick) *giggling*
Me:hmmm, are you sure?you are?Is this a prank or real? do i know you?
The person: No, it's real.*giggling away*I'm the delivery man for the hamper.*still giggling*
me:Ohhh really?okok, my mum is home can i get her to receive it instead.?
The person:Ok, I will be there soon.*giggling still*
Me:ok, thanks alot.

So it set me calling here and there after the call.
First, Mum!
Me:MUM!faster go to the door, someone is sending a hamper over to our house.FASTER!
Mum:HUH?!what?who send?who buy it?for who?
Me:for me la!my friend buy one!FASTER the person reaching already.
Mum:okok, (put down the phone before I could finish my sentence.)

NEXT,HIM
Me:hey, you bought something?
Him:huh?!hmmmm, come already?
Me: oh, so it's really from you?
him:ya, why?
Me: I thought someone played prank on me!OMG why did you do that?WASTE of $$$.THANKS((:
Him:It's my pleasure(:

The Hamper has like abalone, tea, fish maw and the list went on.
And it's half of my height CAN?!

WEAK

2009-01-20T00:13:00.002+08:00

Seriously, I think I've STM(short-term memory), Cock-eye, sleepless weeks and you-name-it-I-have-it.
))))))))))))):

I love the tinge of happiness that I have in talking to you and hearing that song.
((((((((:

It really feels terrible.

2009-01-18T00:01:00.002+08:00

Dread to struggle with projects over and over again.):

2009-01-16T00:58:00.001+08:00

Thank God for Hannah,
Now I know we ain't just co-workers,
but friends too(:
Praise the Lord.

a so called "friend"

2009-01-14T16:35:00.002+08:00

I don't even know why are you still someone I'm mentioning here,
after 2 years.
It's been so much,
"We are now Poles apart,
It seems like even our worlds would barely meet."

I know we won't be like what we used to be,
and I don't wish to...

2009-01-13T15:13:00.001+08:00

Somehow somewhat, it flew in as an entry.

Endless Projects

2009-01-08T03:26:00.004+08:00

Here I am,
And there, he is in his cosy bed.
)))))))))))):

After rushing out my math corner,

4 math activity,

posters,

materials searching,

doing of materials, labels.

etccc.

Yes, All in just a week.
Little Had I thought I'm able to take a breath for at least couple of days.

I realised, I need rush deadlines for next week projects.
3 projects due and 1 test coming up.
Ask me what have I done.
I don't know.
)))))))):

Constantly, I pray for strength and just more.
And Yes God does answer my prayer.((((;

Nutrition lesson plan,
2 Math lesson plans,
analysis of videotaping,
photoshop test and another I forgotten,
are awaiting for me.
)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))):

A weekday of working as door host,
I think I should be contented to be my cashier inside the bar.
At least, I'm able to sort my time for my work and do my project secretly.
Although, It's a total boredom to face the usual barmen and stockroom.HAHAHAHAHA
(((((((((:

I ~~need~~ a new job.
And he refused to let me go))))))):
Ipromisedtouploadmybirthdaypicturesasap.
MostprobablyendofFeb,after all the nightmares are gone.

I'm sorry,Mum for not being able to stay home recently.

Driver.

2009-01-06T13:51:00.003+08:00

Lee Meichan is a certified DRIVER(((((((((((:

I forgotten to include this in my new year resolution.
But I believe, God has see me through these.
(((((((((;
And He will continue to shine His light in me((((((:
Amen.

He has started This year for me in His glorious way(:

I've worked my resolution, have you?

2009-01-02T01:53:00.002+08:00

Happy New Year.
I've just realised I didn't wrote my last year's resolution)))):

2008.
-Moving on to my second attachment centre.
-Changing my part time job from ShopNsave to Villa Bali.
-Got into a relationship that I've least expected!
-Having a picnic with the girls.
-Going on holiday without an adult.
- And I don't remember anymoreeee.

2009's resolution.
-No more repeating modules!
-Get a part time job of being a Florist or admin job.
-Japan and Australia trip.
-Mum's business prosper.
-Pass my results with flying colors

Off-line.

2008-12-27T04:32:00.002+08:00

I went overboard,
and crossed the line.
It seems I have forgotten the rules,
That was set in the beginning.):

EQUINOX

2008-12-22T23:07:00.007+08:00

He changed to meet at 9 plus.
))):
Meet him at City Hall,
He wasted time to pay his Credit Card bills,
and brought me to Swissotel Hotel Lobby.
And I saw Equinox,
a place my friend introduce me to bring him for his birthday.

So I asked him,
M: Are you bringing me therE?
H: Why?
M: Faster, is it?
H: ya, Why?
M: Are you serious? (giggling)
H: ya, why?This place can see the entire Singapore, 70 storey.
M: ya, I know. (smiling) no wonder, you ask me whether I scare height anot that day.
H: ya, Its a nice place.
M: you come before?
H: ya, wine training course.

I suffered from ear block while taking the lift.
It's a nice and posh restaurant!
Everyone there were dressed up in ninies and branded clothes.
I felt so Out, wearing a $29.90 dress!
Sat at the window,
reading the menu, and pick our food.
It cost $150 per person!
I was like wahahahahah!
So we had like appetiser, soup, starter, main course and dessert.
While eating, I asked him.
uhuhh?Then I got no birthday present?(because he didn't carry anything)
He just kept on smiling away, refuses to answer.
So I said, oh ok lorrr.
Then Just continue to eat and enjoy the night view.
The entire dinner took us more than 2 hours.
Lastly, I went to the toilet.
Just a Trip to the toilet,
I lost my way like THRICE!!!
THRICE?!
Can you imagine, finding the toilet and back to the restaurant.?!
BUT the toilet were fantastic!
It's a total luxury man!
Like a 5-star Hotel toilet.
Back to the restaurant, Dessert were served.
Pardon me for not appreciating Brandy Ice-cream.
Then we Just continued enjoying the night view,
As the cake arrived.
It was all filled of macaroons.
With words on it,
Happy 19th Birthday.
It was almost 12am.(my birthday was almost over)
And he gave me my present, which is on the chair by the side.
And still, I did not notice at all!
I opened up, it's a Ipod Classic with 120GB!
I was like OMG!!!!

I asked him, How much is it!?
H: Don't tell you, you like it?
M: ya, THANKS.

after sitting around for a while, we left.
We went to the new asia bar on the 71 storey.
The bouncer was rather fierce and persist to look at his IC before letting him in.
So He said, I definitely can go in, but I'm not sure about her.
So the bouncer said, No, But I will still need check yours(didn't bother about me).
*after seeing*, Wahhhh, I bet someone will out for check you again!hahahahahah
Took a couple of picture with the decoration and left.

I really enjoyed my birthday to the max.
MY BABOON!, Thanks for the effort and
Pleaseeing the people at Bakerzin to make the cake possible.
Thanks for bringing me to such a posh restaurant and
luxury to enjoy these moments with you.
Treating me like your precious one.
THANKS ALOT!(((:

You guys made a mark in my life(:

2008-12-19T00:50:00.002+08:00

Lord, I pray for a pink of health till next weekend,
For my birthday is coming,
Christmas preparation.

I also thank you for giving me all the special people around.
Providing the needs and help that I need,
Their prescence certainly are significant.
Thanks Yan Lin,
For helping me to prepare thing for my birthday!(:
Despite of the tons of projects that I know, we're all having.
Thanks Ching Er,
for being there to listen to my sorrows late at night.
All these certainly means alot(:
Thanks Magdeline,
For being my GREAT Shopping-Partner(:
Thanks Ying Qi,
For being so cheerful always,
Never fail to boost the atmosphere to the highest.
Though at times all of us, will show -.-" (HAAHAHAHAHAHAH)
Thanks Cindy,
for Meeting us despite the hectic schedule you have.
And Many more...

Obviously, there are more to come in the future.
I really Thank God for having all of you by my side,
Through 'N', 'O' Level, Polytechnice Life, and more in the future.
(((((((((((((((((((((((:

Home sweet home.

2008-12-18T00:04:00.001+08:00

I just want to stay home everyday,
rotting and sleep till afternoon.
Not going anywhere.
Just staying home every single day.
Taking my own sweet time to read up my
assignments Descriptor,
Research on my projects,
flipping through my past semsters module to work on my lesson plan
and read books that I have borrowed.

I just need stay home!!)))))))))))))))):

More pictures

2008-12-17T23:55:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday.

2008-12-17T21:19:00.004+08:00

Happy Birthday, My Baboon.!
Had 2D1N chalet.

Bosses and other supervisors Called him back for meeting.
And gave him a surprise(((:

And we went out together at night on his birthday(16 Dec).
Yes, I had everything planned for him.
I had to reach at least an hour before that to do everything.
But, I was still late.
Brought Him to Woods Restaurant at Vivo.
It's pretty a fine dining place.
The cable car people didn't want to help me keep my things,
and charged me more than what I should PAY.
It really pissed me off.):
So I get the restaurant people to keep it.
And started blindfolding him at the restaurant.
Everyone was staring at us as we proceed to the cable car.
It took me and the cable car assistant a lot effort to help him onto the cable car.
I unblindfolded him, and sang him birthday song with a cake.((((:
With the moment the cable car reached outside.
Hoped He enjoyed.((((((:

2008-12-13T23:57:00.000+08:00

Met Magdeline and Ying Qi,
before going to Germaine performance.
Shopping and had meal at a korean restaurant,
Ying Qi didn't really like the taste of the sauce):
Side Dishes.

Trauma

2008-12-12T23:42:00.000+08:00

I was very much affected and tramatised.
You didn't seem to be the one I know.

NEo-prints(old school)

2008-12-09T23:52:00.000+08:00

YEA!
PROJECTS!And more of Projects!
After doing a little projects, we had a little fun(:

Last Christmas

2008-12-09T22:29:00.001+08:00

Last Christmas I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears I'll give it to someone special

One bitten and twice shy
I keep my distance but you still catch my eye
Tell me baby, do you recognize me
Well, it’s been a year, it doesn’t surprise me
Merry Christmas I wrapped it up and sent it with a note saying
I love you, I meant it
Now I know what a fool I’ve been
But if you kiss me now, I know you’d fool me again

Last Christmas I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears I'll give it to someone special

Last Christmas I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears I'll give it to someone special

A crowded room, and friends with tired eyes, I’m hiding from you
And your soul of ice
My God, I thought you were someone to rely on
Me?
I guess I was a shoulder to cry on

A face on a lover with a fire in his heart
A girl under cover but you tore apart
Maybe this year, maybe this year
I’ll give it to someone special

Cause, Last Christmas I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears I'll give it to someone special

Last Christmas I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears ill give it to someone special

And, Last Christmas…
And this year…
Won’t be anything like… anything like…
Last Christmas I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year, to save me from tears I'll give it to someone special

I blame her and myself.

2008-12-08T23:19:00.004+08:00

I feel like slapping her.
I feel like giving her a tight slap.
Just Off that God-Damn Television!
She's studying for her test tomorrow,
Here I am doing my projects.
Blasting away her television sound with my music.
I'm already mentally and Physically so Tired.
I don't need all these competition of small things like these.
Enough is enough.

I don't even want to be emotionally tired.
Mentally and physically tired is more than I could bear already.
Stop those remarks of yours.
You just enjoy twisting your words around,
I'm sick and tired of doing things that satisfied you,
JUST BECAUSE YOU ARE MY SISTER.?!
Then should it be the way that you understand me?
giving me more than the support, that I neeD?
Instead, you just went on making comments like,
Cannot make it la,
You're being a nusiance, making yourself like a clown.
I don't know what to say to you anymore.
I given hope on you.
Then you say something like,
wahh, like that I think he treat you not bad le,
maybe he's true.
etccccc...

It used to be so influential to me,
BECAUSE IT'S FROM YOU!
Furthermore, it really set me thinking,
thinking,
thinking,
thinking over and again,
thinking seriously.
Then it begin me doubting him.
Questioning him etccc....
I really hate it,
I should trust myself,
afterall, we are in this together.
I know It's partially my fault too,
Being soft to listen.
But comments like those repeatedly really drive me crazy, mad and nuts.

All these comments, I'm through.
Totally, Can i just die and let it over.
I really hate myself doubting so much.
Rather, I think I'm being used.
To be a Bridge in between.
Support and encouragement is all I need now.
):

Love, loved, lovely.<3

2008-12-05T17:06:00.003+08:00

Didn't had any sleep the entire night.
Finally EA presentation is over.!
Everything was so last mintue but at least it's done((((((((((:

I feels so blessed now!
Meiying just called and told me,
she got my christmas present already~!
My Dickies BAG!!!!!!!!!
HOORAY!!!!!!
And now it's waiting for me at my Workplace.
((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((:

Followed by, Mum called,
saying that she went for check-up today.
And doctor specialised in ~~pimpled-face~~.
So she got me Soap and Cream.
((((((((((:

Everyone around me is so Concerned about me(((:
I'm so loved.
I love them too(:
PS:He's waiting for me at the bus stop near workplace later.
(((((:
So blessed, I can't contain it.
So much, I got to give it away.

PROJECTS DUE!

2008-12-04T12:40:00.005+08:00

no. of common test paper = 0
Jealous?No, because
no. of assignments due = 8

SF(essay) 4December
EA(presentation) 5decemeber
ITA storybooksubmission 5 december
CD(lecture summary) 7 december
DPIP(case study) 11 december
DPIP(poster design) 11 december
Movie(filming,shooting, edit) 12 december
Attachment - owe 3 days of attachment (Supposed to make up on 19dec)

Furthermore, Christmas performance!
Our birthdays!

when school reopens,
1st week - 2 assignment
2nd week - 3 ssignments
3rd week - 2 assignments
4th week - 2 assignments
5th week - 2 assignments
6th week - 1 assignments
7th - WAHHAH EXAM !!

don't just see the quantity but is the quality!
Totally no need sleep already,!

I NEED RETAIL THERAPY BADLY!!!

Though Baby didn't complain,
I feel bad.

Endless Projects

2008-12-02T20:55:00.004+08:00

After working around 13 years at the previous place,

It marks the first day of my mum's new store.

Ya, business isn't as good as what it used to be

But old customers are still flowing in.

God, I just pray that you bless this shop of yours,

Though they are not believers of yours.

Shower them with love and power.

For You are the almighty God.

Amen.

Also, I pray that You'll see me through my projects.

Giving me the energy,

Also endless wisdom and knowledge to finish up my all my assignments.

(((((((((((((((:

Silly.

2008-11-30T21:50:00.000+08:00

I did the silliest thing.
)))))))))))))))))))))))):

Zombie.

2008-11-29T21:43:00.003+08:00

Had Just 2 Hours of sleep the night before.
Thanks for Having 2 projects due the next day.
Wasn't feeling very well,
Gastrics just gotten the better of me which almost causes me to puke!
Right after my dinner.
Got myself some sleep.
Fortunately, LEE MEIYING woke me up at 12 am and say,
I thought you got projects to submited?
If not I will just DIE.!
Chiong all the way to 5am.
FINALLY done with printing and submitting all my assignments.
Knock off for just 2 hours of sleep and headed to school for 8am lesson.
8am lesson all the way to 6pm lesson.
WE JUST SIMPLY think NP should start a hotel for hours of sleep!
Straight after school, headed for work!
7pm to 2am.
I was Literally a Zombie at work.
Went home and sleep for just 8 hours.
And I could sleep no more!
))))):

I was rather pissed with myself.
Kick a big fuss for small little things.
No Patience!
I hated myself for being suspicious about him,
hated myself for venting my anger at him.
Hated myself finding fault and pick a fight with him over small little things.
thanks for waiting for me and talk to me till wee hours.
being there for me when I want to doze off during work.
imissyou.*

Skit.

2008-11-27T21:55:00.002+08:00

Had our EC presentation.

30%

Some of the group did Skits.

Which made everyone hugged their stomach and laughed heartily.

Take a look at these. (both are 20 mins video)

Title: Ingredients for a happy relationship.

Title: How to score a second date out of first date.

I'm getting really sensitive.

2008-11-26T19:53:00.004+08:00

I'm really tired,
Drained with Projects,
So many people are sick in class but still persist on.
I just simply don't get why don't the lecturers put themselves into our shoes?
I really exhausted being torn apart
between Projects, Work, and Him.
I'm getting really particular with comments
and also Whom who made such a statement.
It really bothers me that much.

What's wrong with doing it the way I want?

Him.

2008-11-26T16:36:00.000+08:00

He's really nice to accompany me,
played UNO
and ate Cold Rock just before his work.
(((((((((((((((: